The Homecoming: Embracing the Past in Order to Thrive in the Present

For most of my career, I had no idea of what kept me stuck and living in a prison in my own mind. But I could feel it. Debilitating anxiety from morning till night that paralyzed me with fear. A feeling of never being good enough, no matter what I did or the success I had achieved. A constant need to keep moving and keep “doing, never allowing myself to rest or slow down. For decades I searched high and low for the answer to my salvation, reading every self help book or business development book I could get my hands on and yet still…I could not see it.

Until seven years ago, when I got fired, had a complete mental breakdown and couldn't move off the couch for six straight months... What seemed to be the darkest season of my life, ended up being the saving grace I was praying for, as I finally got to the root of what got in my way every single day.

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD)

If you have never heard of CPTSD, you are not alone. I also had never heard of it and many today are also in the dark of this debilitating diagnosis that stems from childhood trauma and what it does to our brains. It was the things that my young eyes had to see, my young body had to feel, and my young heart had to endure, that set me up for a lifetime of struggle and not a moment of peace.

As survivors of childhood trauma, we often spend so much time away from our bodies and minds that we never truly get to know ourselves. I had never even considered how much my experiences from the past, the very things I buried and spent my life running from, continued to keep me stuck in my life and my professional career.

For the past two months, I have taken a step back from social media so that I could gather the courage, strength, and the fortitude to share my story, my message, and the transformational framework that I created to share with the modern workplace.

My hope is that future generations will never have to struggle the way that I did and that they will have the knowledge, the resources and the tools to break free of yesterday and thrive in the modern workplace.

I call this chapter of my life, ‘The Homecoming’. For it is not just about me coming back home to myself, it's about all of us doing so collectively. 

The journey may be long, and it may be hard at times, but I truly believe that all of us can and deserve to be the highest versions of ourselves.